Motherhood-Mine No More

In the movie "The Lord of the Rings" a special inscription appears on the golden ring that is guarded by Frodo.Throughout the trilogy, the holder of the ring begins to think of the ring as "mine".
In some ways, I understand this feeling.  You see, my life's plan was to have two children.  Once I had been blessed with a girl and a boy, I thought my child bearing days were over.  I didn't take into account that God may have other plans.  Three years after the birth of my second child... baby number three was born. 
It was a difficult pregnancy.  I was sick and had a 4 1/2 year old and a 3 year old to care for.  With all that said, this beautiful little bundle was born and stole my heart.  As he grew, it became apparent very quickly that Jake not only marched to the beat of his own drummer, he built the drum himself. 
Unlike his sister or brother, Jake's interests ran the gammet.  He went from A to Z and back again.  His dad use to say he was just like me.  Ok...I take that as a "good" thing. 
As I watched him grow, I listened to the lyrics of the songs he would write and play.  Lyrics of wisdom, of life's lessons, lyrics of life's experiences. He wrote of life's troubles, pains, and sorrows.  He wrote of love, laughter, friendship, and God's eternal love and forgiveness. His outlook on what he wanted for his life had matured to a level some never ascertain.
Upon graduating from high school, and in honor of the path he had traveled, I  gave him a ring with the inscription, " my heartsong".
The day he moved out, I sank to the floor and cried non-stop for an hour...I wanted to scream...mine, mine.
But he was not mine...not any longer...he had to continue to march to the beat of the drum God had prepared for him.
March on my "heartsong" to the beat that is yours for your destiny awaits.